双头人

7.心病

于刚好不容易把失去理智的洁依送到医院，才让狂乱的她镇定下来。

见洁依睡着了，于刚离开，到医院附近的一家西餐厅坐下，他疲惫得不想抬起头来。

他后面对洁依说的是，他终于想清楚了，要和她以“长久”为前提，用彼此最真实的一面重新相处。如果彼此都觉得对方合适，就请洁依认真考虑和他开始新的婚姻生活。

“家族遗传性精神病？”

于刚闭上眼睛，他真希望耳朵也可以闭上。他露出一个滑稽的笑容。

医生告知，洁依有遗传的精神病，有时候会性格反常，多疑，抑郁，发作起来更是会看到幻觉。这他可从来不知道这些。也是，一开始就不打算长久，根本不会打听那么多的事情。恐怕洁依也是故意隐瞒吧。

洁依现在已经被送到精神疗养院，那里曾经住过她的阿婆。阿婆去世那天，刚好是她搬家的日子。

于刚回到和洁依住过的房子里。自从洁依入院，他就一直失眠。

洁依看起来没有任何好转，每天都对着空气傻笑，嘴里总咕哝着模糊不清的话语，他只能隐约听出她在叫“阿婆”。

每次于刚凑到她跟前要和她说话，她就会惊恐地大叫起来，一直喊他“怪物”，还对着空气哭喊着向“阿婆”求救。

cream呜呜地叫着，尾巴轻轻摇动，慢慢地走到于刚身边。

“怪物”这个词重重地伤了于刚的心，他完全理解不了，为什么自己会成为洁依眼中的怪物？他摸了摸cream的头，这段时间他常常过来，照顾着cream。

我希望她接受真实的我，而我，又能不能接受这样一个真实的她？于刚揉了揉太阳穴，他真想好好睡一觉，可是每次闭上眼睛，洁依的尖叫就在耳边响起。

“cream，走吧，我们都别呆在这个伤心又寂寞的地方了。我带你去另一个家。”于刚打算先离开这里了。

那孩子，见到cream会不会开心呢？那女人，又会不会对cream百般挑剔呢？如果她们对cream不好，于刚就打算自己搬出去，彻底离开算了。反正那个家他早就不想回去，不，是此前的任何一个家。

怪物，只能待在只有自己的地方。

cream兴奋地望着车窗外，汽车发动。于刚在车里又抬头看了那间房子一眼——阳台上有个白影飘动着。

是洁依的衣服么？于刚回到房间，阳台空空如也。他探出大半个身子向外望了望，原来是楼下那家人晾的衣服，他刚才看错楼层了。失眠多天造成精神恍惚。

于刚正准备直起身子来，眼角余光看到一个白影从左边闪过。

“cream？！”于刚以为是cream跌下楼，急得伸手去抓。他抓了个空，身体因此失去重心，从五楼阳台翻身摔下。

被关在车里的cream着急地对着车窗外吠叫着……

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