禁忌游戏

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我责备自己的愚蠢、无能、轻信，那天晚上我喝了很多啤酒，第二天宿醉醒来，枕头被泪水濡湿了一大块。

直到中午我才到学校，没人指责我的旷课，因为学校里似乎发生了不得了的事件，有警车停在那里。

后来我才得知，就在昨晚，艾老师割腕自杀了！

警方介入调查，一个真相浮出水面。刘超所谓的“非常重要的事”是他们正在和其它班的几名学生进行一场竞赛，而竞赛的内容是--让老师屈从！

这个可怕的游戏起源由网上的一个教学贴，作者也是一名中学生，他们从很早就在讨论这件事。选中我有多方面因素，其中最重要的一点是我打了刘超，他们巧妙地利用了我的愧疚心理。初步的接近非常顺利，但在为我庆祝生日的那晚，他们发现要让我听话光凭讨好是不可能的，朋友和奴隶之间存在着巨大的鸿沟，于是就有了后来的威胁计划。

而艾老师是另一个被选中的人，我无从得知那些学生对她用了怎样狡猾阴险且更具想象力的手段。他们最终迫使艾老师做了一件屈从的事情，还把视频发到网上去炫耀，无法承认这一切的艾老师最终选择了自杀。

事件以三名学生被开除，其他人被停课告终，他们连这个游戏有多危险都不清楚，面对记者的质询甚至摆出一副无辜的脸说：“我只是为了好玩，没有别的！”

我不知道还有什么资格站到讲台上，若无其事地为人师表，于是我向校方递交了辞呈。

离开学校的时候，我下意识地回头看去，那里传来阵阵诵读声，听上去是如此单纯质朴、纯净无邪，我突然明白刘老师说的话，“学生有你看不见的可怕之处”。

我想起一件往事，中学时我有一位物理老师，教了一辈子书，是个威风八面、老辣干练的人。有一天一个男生上厕所，看见了一些东西，回来和大家宣传。倒不是什么神秘的事，这位老师有严重的痔疮，每次都会便血，上厕所是件很折磨他的事情。大家纷纷传说，好像从头得到了莫大的快乐，有恨他的学生在墙上画讽刺他的漫画。惭愧的是，当时我也参与其中，那时幼稚的我想，想不到他是这么丑陋的一个家伙啊，还装什么清高，真是虚伪至极！顶受不住压力的他终于有一天没来上课，我和课代表去他家找他，隔着门我听见他在哭，一个七十岁的老人，哭得像孩子一样伤心！

我回头眺望的时候才明白那位老师为什么哭，胸膛中不禁悔恨地刺痛起来，原来我也做过这种伤害他人的事情。

这世上再没有什么比把一个被光环笼罩的人拽下神坛、按进烂泥，揭得体无完肤更痛快的事情了！孩子是单纯的，也是残酷的，或者说人类本性就是如此残酷！

在那一双双天真无邪的眼睛注视下，站在讲台上的人必须一直扮演圣人，不能走错一步，不能露出一丁点死角，甚至……不能像是个人！

Introduce:One, gutty and fastfood snail of land for growing field crops of flesh calling fill, the sousaphone is played bead so big river snail, come to the fleshy winkle inside, with pork a chop, mix on flavoring, garlic, ginger fills in again in the carapace that return spiral shell, put into sweet hot Shang Zhili infusion, carrying with toothpick eat. My hour has eaten, want to rise to flow continuously with respect to meeting saliva only, did not think of school doorway has unexpectedly sell. I bought, eating completely when the mouth sheds boiling water, colleague Mr. Liu is passed from the side, knitted next eyebrow slightly, "Didn't breakfast eat? " " ate, see this cannot help, should you come to? " " not! " he is placed place a hand, trade portfolio to left hand, "Mr. Zhang, you also are a teacher, should note figure! How be seen by the student they can think? " old early in the morning by elder rebuke, do I am quite awkwardly. I just the university graduates, entering this private middle school is the thing this year September, mr. Liu can say the good teacher and helpful friend that is me, but having a thing,I feel on this kind of bagatelle he has bit of neurosis, but still say on the mouth: "I play recycle idea! " " ten million wants to notice! " we walk into the school side-by-side, early morning at 7 o'clock in campus unusually lively however, give a person a kind of young sense. Before reading a class early, I walk into a class in, this 3 class schoolboys mix outside class schoolboy gets together in back row loud josh, those a few are the thorn head in grade, seem also know below illicit. "False really, individual courage is too then great also. " " cut, do not have you to think so hard, stick child in write clearly, should you play play look? " " in case how be done by discovery. " " won't, those fellow are looked at priggish, get flabbily actually disastrous. " " chat again midday, the teacher came in! " do not understand what they are talking about completely, listen go up unlike what is meddlesome, but I do not plan to intermeddle. Tuition of private middle school is exalted, source of student is precious, and teacher of invite applications for a job is too easy, a post can let a few graduate scramble for sth. So school the balance that just takes seriously gradually toward the student that a side tilts, "Everything for the student, everything for the student " , say very pleasant, but next businesses that also can cause an extreme are driven in this kind of viewpoint of value. More bedfast than if time has a teacher last month,be being beaten by problem student, school just gave typical penalty only unexpectedly. Everybody feel discontented, below the environment of such ignore teacher, who is still willing to provide those problem students? Just came to the school those a few months, but I exceed serious. Write down so that once I praise composition class energetically an article, still recite on the class, comment on how how good, him author is in all the time below snicker. My be extremely puzzled, mr. Liu shows me to say: "Hand