死亡约定

说好一起去死

整个高三，没有人比姚燕双更讨厌考试，虽然她成绩好，一直是老师眼中的乖乖学生，一流大学的不二人选，但只有同桌兼最好的朋友云苏苏知道她内心的痛苦，因为她们的感受一样，考试之前会有强烈的呕吐感，考完了以后会相拥哭泣，然后擦干眼泪等待下一场考试。

她们一起撕过书，烧过作业本，对学校教务主任念过咒语。姚燕双说如果没有办法跟严凯考上同一所大学将来肯定就要分手，严凯在大学里给她写信安慰她，没事的，你肯定能考上，我等着你们。

云苏苏也是严凯的女朋友，她也可以收到他的来信，内容几乎一模一样。

云苏苏害怕自己考不上，除了严凯还有自己的父母，每天在耳边唠叨，考不上大学你就去死好了。

高考前的最后一次模拟考试两个女孩都考砸了。

“我们去死吧，我不想再过这样的生活。”眼睛哭得肿起来的云苏苏在自家阳台冷漠地看着冰冷的地板。

“我的遗书也准备好了，我们互相交换看怎样，”姚燕双显得特别平静，脸上有点天真的表情，“以后我们在底下还是可以做同桌，而凯凯也会一辈子记得我们两个。”

云苏苏点点头，姚燕双的校服被风吹起来的时候她笑了，“这样我们就解脱了，虽然上天想挽留我们，但我们已经决定了，不是吗？”

云苏苏抱了抱她，“我先来吧。”

“不，我先来，我比你更需要离开这个世界。”姚燕双张开双臂做了个飞翔的姿势，“我在底下等你。”

云苏苏的那一丝犹豫是看见姚燕双由一个完整的脑袋变成一些血肉模糊的碎片时产生的。

没有人知道她为什么不跳下去，只有她自己知道，因为留恋，她一直觉得自己更爱严凯，如果自己跳下去了，也许严凯看见那混在一起的碎头皮会觉得更加难过。

姚燕双的抑郁症是重度，她迟早要自杀的。云苏苏在病床上自言自语，被旁边的人听见了。

严凯说我永远不会离开你，你要好好活下去，跟我一起到大学去谈恋爱。

云苏苏总是在半夜里仿佛听见姚燕双说我在底下等你，说了整整两年。

云苏苏看着小百合手里的剪刀，听着她说着姚燕双的话，我在底下等你，忽然痛哭起来。

“是我不遵守诺言，看到你跳下去的瞬间，我真的很想活着。”云苏苏跪在地上痛哭流涕，“虽然我的父母叫我去死，但我要死了，他们肯定要伤心，他们肯定宁愿我不上大学也希望看到我好好地长大，做普通的工作，然后结婚生小孩。我不敢想象他们看到我尸体时伤心的样子，对不起！”

古欣然走了进来，云苏苏爬起来扑倒在他怀里，满脸泪水。

他轻轻地推开云苏苏，“你终于还了小双一个公道。”

高考前两个月，在乡下念书的古欣然通过亲戚的关系租了姚燕双家里的地下室，因为离考点近，是个读书的好地方，除了偶尔跟姚燕双打打招呼，其余的时候一律把自己锁在地下室拼命地复习，好不容易有了在这个城市考试的机会，不能浪费一天时间。

有时候姚燕双会走到自己家院子自言自语，那天晚上她看见古欣然，很高兴地说，明天我就要到一个快乐的地方去了，我希望以后你能记住我好吗？

和谁去？古欣然有点好奇。

跟我最好的朋友苏苏啊，你不认识的，你又不在我们班上念书，她说话算数的，我先去，她后到，如果她不来，你要帮我惩罚她哦。

后来的后来，当几乎崩溃的姚燕双父母说起女儿的死，却没有提到云苏苏半个字，只是说，我们要搬走了，女儿死了，这里也没办法住下去，房租也不要你的了，是她自己没有福气，苏苏也尽力了，劝都劝不住，差点拽着她一起死了，还好燕双没有害到别人。

上大一时，古欣然看到了严凯和云苏苏在学校草地上依偎，忽然想起了惨死的姚燕双。

小百合以前总是问，古欣然，为什么一年了你还不能接受我做你的女朋友。

因为我心里有一个人，我必须要完成她给我的任务，我才能腾出地方让你进来。古欣然看着小百合认真地说道。

他让塑料时装模特穿好衣服挂在树梢，她来处理照片，他来安排潇洒哥，他来导演，她来配合。

冬天的雪下来的时候，天空是铅色，是个自杀的好天气。小百合和古欣然早就搬出去了，云苏苏对着镜子化妆，不停地补粉，脸跟外面的雪一样白。

红色的嘴唇像喝完血。

站在宿舍的顶楼，看着脚下白茫茫的雪地，小腿已经冻得发紫，高中的校服现在穿起来有点小，但仍然保存得很好。

云苏苏有点头晕，友情和爱情都是虚幻，这世上还有什么可以依靠。

迈出第一只脚的时候，云苏苏仿佛看见楼下空旷的雪地上躺着姚燕双，她招着手，“来啊，我在底下等你。”

手机响了。

“说好寒假一起去西山，你老爸偏要去凌云山，还说上面菩萨灵验得很，我看还是你自己回家决定吧。”

云苏苏张了张嘴，“那还是去凌云山吧。”

雪停了的时候出太阳了，有人看见云苏苏在宿舍门口烧了一套校服。

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