最干净的眼睛

终

宝宝又一次哭起来，声嘶力竭，对所有的安慰视若无睹。我忽然觉得婴儿其实很聪明，她什么都知道，可惜的是，她什么都说不出来。

母亲听完我的话后没说什么，挥手让我出去，说自己要冷静地想想。我给安安打了电话，她的声音异常冷淡，告诉我她要把孩子带走，和我离婚。

我在电话里先是安抚，后是央求，最后变成了咆哮。等一切方法用尽，我发现她依旧这么斩钉截铁时，我终于下定了决心：“安安，你老实告诉我为什么。”

“不为什么，你知道的。”她挂上我的电话。

我彻夜难眠，躺在床头抽烟。她没有带走我送她的香水，那瓶子好端端地放在化妆桌上，反射着白森森的月光。

第二天，我照常上班。我没有告诉母亲安安会来。

我关了手机，一直耐心等到下午五点多钟，终于在公司的座机上接到了母亲的电话。她的声音如我所想那样惊慌失措，又带着凶狠的意味：“我——把安安杀了。”

她这样开口。我甚至可以想象到她一手握着刀子，一手抱着宝宝，全身被血染红的场景。宝宝是母亲的命根子，她不可能让任何人带走她。

我适当喘息，颤抖着声音开口：“你别动，等我回来。”

我回到家时，母亲已经平静下来。她用一块白色的抹布擦干净了自己身上的血，安安就躺在地上，一动不动，那把刺死她的剪刀现在睡在她的身边。

房间里传来风铃的声音，我跑进去，宝宝正在抓着它玩。看见我，她愣了愣，张开嘴哇哇大哭起来，好像知道自己失去了妈妈一样。

母亲跟了进来，拉着我坐下。我泪流满面，声嘶力竭地质问她，她沉默不语，直到最后握着我的手跟我说了一句话：“我已经报警了。等警察来，我跟他们走，我自首，争取宽大处理。你要好好带大宝宝。”

我惊愕地起身，母亲把我摁坐下来。

我挣扎，哭喊着跪在她脚边，她冰凉的眼泪一滴滴掉进我的脖子里。

我闭上眼睛。一切如我所愿。

在安安月子期间，我曾经带着宝宝去过一趟医院。医生告诉我，宝宝对某些气味很敏感，随着年龄的增加，会越来越明显，并叮嘱我回家告诉安安不要擦某种花香味的香水。

从那时起，我就已经打定了主意。

迷信又专制的母亲控制了我的童年，美丽的安安迷惑了我的青年，现在她们都离开了。只剩下我和宝宝。

我伸出手指让宝宝捏住。我不知道从她的角度，到底会看见什么我看不见的东西。那场景想想都会让人不寒而栗。

我揉了揉脖子，宝宝忽然嚎啕大哭起来，一声催着一声，一声赶着一声，越来越刺耳，越来越尖锐。

我掏了掏耳朵，皱起眉头盯着她。我的影子罩在她的婴儿床上方，我不知道她还在怕什么。带有那种让她过敏香水味道的安安已经死了。不是吗？

我又揉揉脖子，她持续不间断地哭着，我觉得有些心烦。最近肩膀很疼，很酸，就好像长时间负重了一样。改天我得去医院看看。

我离开被宝宝的哭声充斥的房间，慢慢关上了门。从门缝中，我发现她一直用那双黑黝黝的眼睛盯着我，面无表情。

这次，她又到底在看什么呢？

Introduce:Only then a lot of people say, the baby can see some of strange thing, it is they say not to come out only. Tonight, the action with unusual darling reached peak eventually. When 8:30, her hunger wakes, round eye looks for goggle at everywhere the grandma eats. The I am busy in the study Zhang Wu that liquidates a company, the mother is listening in the room storytelling, only a person is in the wife in infantile room. Passed before long, I hear the wail of shout oneself hoarse to cry. That cry resembles wanting to prick the heart that shows a person, go out from leap up of upstairs infantile room quickness, seam dive to come down along the wall, diffuse quickly in whole home. When me dodder along runs go upstairs, when the door that pushs infantile house, the mother is holding darling in the arms to keep fooling, wife station trembles all over in the corner. Darling still is crying, two little hands are grasped closely, exhaust systemic effort squall is worn, like wanting to wail. I never listen to her to had cried so before, I never also hear any children to had cried so. The wife has turned round to look at me. The room is illuminated to get brightly lit by the lamp, did not leave any dead space. In such light, I saw the fear in her eye clearly. "She the grandma that one — does not agree to eat me, also do not let me stand by, hold her in the arms to cry. " before I go up one pace, the wife walks over to me. I help her shoulder up, take her. Step that an instant of a room in her, the cry of darling stops abruptly inside the door. Harsh rumour also stanch, the grow grow sound that electric current gives out also stanch, all round a hush, had not happened like what same. The footstep of the wife pauses, carry soon see me, turn the head entered a room again. I have not enough time to prevent, can follow her to be run back to only. The mother is holding darling in the arms to be in fool, darling laugh is gotten happy, see a wife in an instant, pause, abrupt loud cry rises, sound is compared a moment ago even miserable, even atrocious, exert oneself to do sth. even, like seeming not to meet a wife. Cried a little while, the mother exclamations rise, the skin of darling begins extensive unexpectedly red, little had little a knot in one's heart. The mother was psyched out, cuddle she is being patted gently in the bosom, I stand in the doorway to look at darling, look to feel more more wool of a paroxysm in the heart. I do not know her a moment ago was to fearing after all wife, still fear other what thing. The wife is stupefied be stupefied it is good that the ground looks at her a little while, immerse oneself in suddenly rushed out, run next stair. I am slow-witted stand in inky corridor, as her far go, the cry of darling stanch. I stand outside the door, the eyelid since hold up is being stared at all the time cuddle is worn the mother that darling is fooling in a low voice. In a certain casual instant, I feel her side side head, if the eyes has be like wave without the ground, resembling is to reminding me those things that she has said with me. One, life style most