夜谭记之无音

4.斩命

乡间景色从车窗一闪而过。天色渐暗时，荷秆居然抖动了起来。

林夫人收回碗莲，林无音浑身无力，从车窗往外看去，见是一座大山庄，门匾写着“秋水”二字。

“你在这里等我。”林夫人淡淡地吩咐道。山庄大门突然洞开，一排家丁列队而出，紧接着是一个黑衣的劲装男子，他神情关切地扶着身旁的女子，慢慢踱步而出。

“娘！”那女子激动地喊道，竟然是姐姐林无念。她身形消瘦，但整个人气色红润。

那一日的景象还历历在目，冬日天寒，路上少有人走动。林无音怂恿了姐姐一起出门，去白石寺赏梅。白石寺的腊梅开得正好，如蜜蜡般剔透，且香味幽冷。

林无音贪玩不愿意早早回家，一直到天色将暗，姐妹俩才坐着马车往回走。走到半路突然下起了瓢泼大雨，两人落水后被冲了很远，姐姐将她推上岸之后，她的手原本是拉着姐姐的。

但是不知道为什么，那一刻，她觉得自己浑身无力，有一个声音在内心劝说自己，我已经那么累了，真的是无能为力了。慢慢地，随着水流冲刷，两只紧紧握住的手有了缝隙，越来越大，越来越大……

她其实没有那么喜欢陆岳鸣，只是姐姐有的她都想要。也许是嫉妒吧？自己想要的一切，姐姐都唾手可得，而自己用尽全力，姐姐却轻轻松了手。

脚步声终于在马车外停了下来。无念的声音依然是那么清浅：“无音，下车吧。天快黑了，随我先进庄。”林无音猛地拉开车帘，跳了出去，像是有无数积郁在心的情绪想要宣泄。

“林无念！你都快死了！还管我做什么！这一脸温柔的表情真是让人作呕！”

“乖，听话。”林无念脸上扬起一抹笑容。林无音像是被顺了毛的动物，垂头跟在林无念后面，进了秋水山庄。

在庄内大厅坐定，林无念吃力地朝林无音问道：“你的碗莲呢？”林无音心中一动，见林夫人从袖中取出琉璃碗，置于桌上。

“娘，能不能，请你斩断我与妹妹的羁绊？”林无念看着林夫人，神色从容。林夫人神色一震：“无念，你早就知道了？”

“上次随娘亲去了外祖父家之后，我就知道了。”林无念抬眼，“母亲一片爱女之心，无法责难。只是，无音何辜？我原本以为，由我精气神所养，无音可以更健康，但也许是我错了。她早就不是小女孩了，有自己的喜好与人生。”

“无音，这碗莲原本就是以我的精气神养育，再输送给你的。从今往后，你便只是我的妹妹林无音，有什么事，我自会承担，无需你替我挡什么灾厄。”林无念说完这一段话，微微喘气。

林夫人叹口气：“是我的错。你的命格，多灾多难，族中有秘术，可以碗莲养婴，渐渐长大后，便可共同抵挡灾祸。但现要斩断，却也不是那么容易。若贸然斩断，无音怕是活不了了。她本是依附你而生，只要对你仍存了一点点的依赖之心，她便会痴傻。无音她，从小便喜欢黏着你……”

“不，娘……林夫人，我愿意一试。”林无音觉得一切挣扎仿佛都找到了出口。父母明明宠爱自己，自己却对姐姐嫉妒，想要姐姐所拥有的一切。但姐姐不欠她，若非林夫人和林无念，她根本不会存在于世上。不是姐姐愿意让，她就会拥有。

从今往后，她想要的，都会自己去争取，林夫人微微点头，仍是从发髻取下木簪。林无音扑地跪下，望着林夫人，双目发红：“十五年养育之恩，多谢母亲。”

林夫人微微偏过头去，亦是湿了眼眶：“你起来吧，以后，你还是我孩儿。”无音笑起来：“是，娘，孩儿谨记。在此之前，我还想和阿姐说几句话。”

林无音目视林无念，问道：“阿姐，这一年多，你还好吗？”

林无念笑：“我很好，虽然起初记不起前事，但在山庄过得很开心，等我记起来之后便让王容派人送了碗莲回去。没想到今天，我就感觉到碗莲不对劲，才出门相迎。”

像是看出母亲和妹妹的不安，林无念笑着以目光示意身旁的黑衣男子：“你看，我真的很好，还遇到了王容。”望着面色苍白的女子，林无音忍不住脱口而出：“对不起，我……”

“嘘，不必讲了。我知道。”林无念阻止了林无音的话。

林无音站到林夫人面前，垂下头。林夫人手中的簪尖往琉璃碗内轻轻一刺。这一瞬间，只如珍珠般大小的睡莲发生的变化却仿佛被放大了十倍，有着震撼人心的力量。

而林无音所经历的，却比在场任何一个人都多，一生的经历都似在眼前一一闪过。到最后，她站在一个挤挤挨挨的桥头，花灯满街，人潮涌动，四顾茫然，有个声音在耳边响起：“妹妹，我们回家吧。”

她转头，一只莹门的手朝她伸来，她看不清对方的面容，周边的人与事渐渐变得渺远，一个身影清晰起来，秋水为神、玉为骨。她原本有些迟疑的手伸出去，牢牢握住了那只手：“姐姐。”

荷叶之上开出一个白色花苞，盛开，凋零，长出碧绿的莲蓬，莲蓬又渐浙于枯，变成褐色，慢慢垂下头去，然后在一个瞬间，突然湮灭不见，琉璃碗中清水碧透，再不见睡莲的影子。

林无音觉得心口一松，仿佛有什么束缚被除去。但又有些空落落的，像是遗失了什么。

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