死结疙瘩

过去

医院里的医生，一直做着贩卖人体器官的地下工作，赚着黑钱。他在黑市里发布消息，然后买主再向他提供需要的血型等，医生便依据给的价钱从自己的医院里挑选下手的对象。

那天是一个需要健康心脏的买主，一直白吃白喝的男孩正是这次买卖中最好的交换品，他被叫进了医生的办公室，我趴在门缝看见，医生坐在椅子上倒了一杯茶，男孩就背对着他小心翼翼地喝着，不到十秒他便倒在了一边。

医生将他拖到了门口的面包车上，回去给买主打电话。我看着躺在车上的男孩，他即使入睡都皱着眉头，我将他小心翼翼地拖出来，将另一个被我迷倒的男孩推了进去，关上了车门。

回到屋子不久，医生哼着小曲将车开走了。

打扫的大妈站在门口冷着脸说：“他还是会死的。命数，都已是命数。”

我时时保护他，却还是没有保住。我没想到，原来他那么在意有一个完整的家。或许是因为他从小到大都没得到过家人的爱，一直在醉酒父亲的鞭打下生活。

他吊在风扇上，我看着悬在空中的他，他第一次脸上带着笑，或许他在死之前看见了自己最想得到的。

我忍着心痛将风扇打开，尸体随着扇叶转了起来，我看着被磕碰得血肉模糊的尸体，狠狠关上了门。我藏在杂物室里，看着喝醉酒巡夜的医生，他一个房间一个房间地巡视着，看他走到最后一个房间，然后尖叫着坐到地上。

其他病房的门，都没像往常一样上了锁，那些病人像是死尸一样围在他的身边。他疯了，被吓疯了。若不是他做了那么多的亏心事，也不会心理承受能力这么差。

警察搜查了医生的办公室，保险柜里有一大沓子钱，抽屉里还装着黑市交易的合同。男孩的床下被打着一个又一个的死结，解下来才知道整整175个。

警察数了数那些合同，也刚好175张，原来他早就知道医生的罪行，也早就知道自己也会有那么一天。

第二天，这里就被查封了，无家的病人被安排到了收容所，有家的都送回了家里。我也因此回了城，我带着一坛骨灰来到城里的墓园，买了一块墓地，管理墓园的老头问我，墓碑上应该写点什么?

我将骨灰坛子用手擦了一遍又一遍，喃喃地说：“刘杨，我的儿子。”

有时候，让别人在乎你的最好办法，就是不那么在乎他们。

Introduce:Order order darkness bespread this a covered corridor or walk, cannot see an end, the bulb on ceiling is sending out faint light, a man that wearing white unlined long gown walks unsteadily the ground is going, there is a bottle in the hand, as the body shook many wine to scatter come out. He drank drunkly, suck the piquancy in smooth mouth. Both sides of a covered corridor or walk is plastic door of white, there is a small glass to be able to see only on plastic door inside. In the house, tattered bedding shop is in the ground to be duped to make a bed, it is black above extensive is worn the quilt of glossy, the batt inside the quilt is shown outside. Whole house is a head that is next to completely, they resemble is convict is locked up to be here euqally. relatively at roaming about outer, these hobo already very contented. Pieces of the man is whole face bends over to go up in glass, narrow one's eyes is worn rat small hole is gone to inside look, nod next, detest the ground to knitting brows, go toward another door. He shakes ground of one after another of leisurely of shake from side to side to check, take the last door, the bottle in the hand is empty also, he tosses bottle aside, "Phut " fragment of full ground, the air that suddenly is like lonely of checkmate of a bomb is disturbed. Bottle throws broken sound resound to be in a covered corridor or walk, he lighted a cigarette, suck greatly to be spat heavily next. A lot of night, he cannot fall asleep. Can borrow reluctance of wine strong ability to be asleep only, but little movement can let him,regain consciousness immediately. Here resembles a tremendous graveyard, the sky that belongs to him is sepulchral, should close an eye only he can be buried to rise secretly, the sort of feeling that is buried in earth to choke he always can be experienced deeply when be asleep. He throws half smoke on the ground, spit readily. Strike this one bank note, say what also did not work, he is talking in whispers silently in the heart. He bends over in this a covered corridor or walk on the glass before last house, it is black at the moment, whats cannot see. He scratchs his head, other house calculates did not open the lamp, borrowing moon to also can see individual movie. He exerts all his strength the ground pushs the door, door resembling is was withstood to death to death by what clog, how to push do not push. He bends over to go up in glass again, abrupt, one piece is shedding hematic face to stick another in glass, the eye on that piece of face is being opened greatly, taking endless resentment. Corners of the mouth is being ticked off however laugh, laugh the person is creepily. The man is frightened so that cry, drop sit on the ground, hand shakily draws out skill machine to call the police, desperately in the future climbs. At this moment the lamp in a covered corridor or walk destroyed suddenly, the patient in other house is pulling a body to go, resembling is the corpse that just climbed from cemetery, taking clay to still have dead body smelly. They surround the man into circuit, low head looks at him motionlessly. The man just fears all over ground shakily, dare not look up to also dare be not moved. The police after a few minutes just